Hi and
What would you say you have the hardest time with? What sort of self care do you do? Do you have any support, other than here?
Thank you :-)
The hardest time for me is with the constant irresponsibility on his part, in all areas. He's not careful with ANything and there's "always something". The apparent inability to successfully adult. I am worn out after 10+ years. Now he's only been a legal adult for 6 years but there was still drama and losing/breaking things prior. Ever since he entered high school.
I also have a hard time with his drug use and self-harm. I think of how many times I kissed those baby arms and see how scarred up they are now... :-( My younger brother died 4 years ago from infection/illness brought on by drug abuse and I wonder how the heck he could do what he has/does in light of that.
Self-care...I go to counseling once a month. I closet myself away in my bedroom and watch TV/zone out on TikTok
I crochet. I pray. I say I'm selfish but actually it's just that I have drawn boundaries really well the past few years. Finally. Only took me til just about 50