I think believing in yourself means knowing that you are doing the right thing. As easy as that sounds, sometimes it can be a struggle. We all live with doubt in various areas of our lives. We can't be experts in all things, (although some seem to enjoy acting that way). So I thought to myself - how do I know what I'm good at? How do you know you're a good parent? A good employee? A good gardener? A good artist? A good listener? A good friend? A good lover?

We know this because we are constantly evaluating ourselves and we critique our performance as either good or bad.  We ask ourselves; Was this good enough? Am I done? Should I do more? Will others like it? Hate it? That voice we hear is doubt and uncertainty, our own worst critic.

I think the BP in many of our lives feeds and magnifies this inner critic of ours. They blame us for everything that goes wrong (remember rule 1).  And we buy what they are selling each and every time.  They belittle us and criticize us to such a degree that we are afraid to try or to speak out, in case we are wrong. We don't want to hear anymore blame or hurtful words. We just want peace.

We allow them to create the conditions so that we feel bad about ourselves, even though they are often the ones who are in the wrong. It seems as though we actually have two problems. Not only are some of us our own worst critics, we also have a mentally ill person placing all responsibility on our shoulders for anything and everything bad. 

So how did the Cowardly Lion finally find the courage to stand up and fight the Wicked Witch of the West? He believed he had something to fight for. He believed that he had done what was requested and he believed in fair play. He had begun to believe in himself.

How can you do the same?

Step1 - Choose a mantra or motto that you can repeat to yourself every day. Try something like, "I can do whatever I put my mind to"

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Step2 - Learn that your opinion is the only one that matters. Put aside the petty thoughts and opinions of others. In your life, you are the only one who has to wake up to yourself and your reality every day.

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Step3 - Speak up for your opinions at work, school or at home. When you break out of a submissive role in your interactions with others, you will begin to build confidence in your own voice and judgment.

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Step4 - Try anything, even if you have a voice in the back your mind telling you that it isn't possible. Even the smallest triumphs can build up a sense of self, and can help you believe in yourself the next time you are faced with a challenge or goal.

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Step5 - Talk yourself out of self-defeating behavior. When you begin to tell yourself that you can't accomplish a certain goal in life, you are letting yourself fail before you even try. Begin by reversing your self speech that brings you down, and tell yourself the opposite.

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Step6 - Surround yourself with people you admire. You can more easily believe in yourself when you are with people who have goals and work to achieve them. Walk up to someone you admire for going back to school and holding down and job, and ask them how they managed it. This can open up the way to friendship and ideas about how you can accomplish your goals.

Heres a story I found on the internet, that I found interesting:

A few years ago, students in medical school were entering the classroom for the final exam of one of the most difficult courses in the whole curriculum. The students had studied non stop for days, and were as prepared as they could be. The professor sat quietly at his desk at the front of the room.

As the bell rang, the professor slowly walked over and closed the door. Then he turned to the class and said "anyone who does not want to take this exam can leave now and earn a B for this course." The students exchanged glances, trying to decide what the kicker was, and then the professor repeated the statement. Students hurriedly got up and left the classroom.

About a dozen students were left. The professor looked around and said "last chance – you can leave now and be guaranteed a B for this course." A few more students got up and left with a look of relief on their faces.

With about 8 students left in the room, the professor shut the door, then turned to the students and said "congratulations. You have all demonstrated that you believe in yourself and I give you an A for this course. You are excused."

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Would you have left the room?

Do you believe in yourself?

 I know me i am not good at studing and never was i could study all night and yes i would leave if i was quenteed that B due to not sure even if i studied what grade i would get. i can say my self esteem never was the greatest over time it has gotten better and then i was able to then show my kids the importance of self esteem they do so much more then i did when i was there age they are involved in so much more i never was involved in anything i just stayed in my shell.  my daughter is so much more stronger then i ever was able to speak her mind and be more of a leader i am so glad i was able to raise them this way due to  i didn't want for them what i had and that was so low self esteem i wanted them to achieve and beleive they could, because of my low self esteem i was very shy growing up got involved with the wrong group of kids, didn't do well at jobs didn't think i could do much of anything, got involved with the wrong kind of men, i am much better now but i am also 47 took many years and a BPDh to get me where i am at ,and the funny thing is he  doesn't know his actions made me so much stronger it made me look at me . 8)

I would have stayed because I'm a good test taker and too competitive to settle for a B.  Plus, in the scenario I was prepared for the test.  I'm working toward believing in myself in life other than academics and work.

Peace & Metta

I would have looked around at what others were doing, afraid to be the one who walks out first, and then as more and more people left, the urge would have been tremendous to follow them. I would have dithered and fidgeted, but I like to believe that I would have had the courage to stay, even though I would have been uncomfortable and edgy about staying... .

Yeah, how much do we believe in ourselves?

in response to the test question; i would sit the test, because i'd be more interested in the grade to see how much i knew and what i needed to work on.  IMO the 'test' should actually be called an 'evaluation' to learn more about ourselves.  the learning is more important than the test results... .if that makes sense?


'i'm the primary power in my life'




i'm trying to do this more. i panic alot around others out of fear of being condemed as the 'problem' as i have been with my foo.  i'm slowly getting better at it and am finding that meditation and yoga are seriously helping me centre myself.




not quite there yet. but hope to be one day.


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that thought is so subconscious that its hard to be aware of.  i just don't go near the things i don't think i can handle.  but i'm beginning to become curious about them.




am currently disabled and housebound.  but i've found more support on here than i ever found in my life before disability.   xoxo

'I am worthy of believing in myself.' I wonder how many times you have to repeat it until you believe it unconditionally? It's so easy to say. But often my actions contradict my words. I know one thing. I'm getting pretty sick and tired of coming up against this wall again and again. I'm beginning to believe my past will always be hanging over my shoulders, weighing me down in some shape or form. I wonder if there really is anyone in the world, who can live through an unsupportive past and truly, really come to a place where they can say they're healed from it. They've honestly forgiven for good. And have released absolutely all their anger and pain from it. I'm growing more skeptical.

I found these values in a book that I read regarding communicating with difficult people,  and they were so in line with my own,  that copied them down:

I am responsible for:

My actions and responses

To carry out my duties to the best of my ability

To maintain the highest ethics,  REGARDLESS of pressure to lower the bar

To act with maturity,  REGARDLESS of the immaturity of anyone around me

My attitude

Compromising when possible to keep a healthy balance within the relationship

To support and encourage,  REGARDLESS of whether I am supported or encouraged

Changing the way I respond if my responses to an irregular person are born out of anger,  as opposed to the sorrow for the joys they miss by their controlling and demeaning attitudes

I don't know who wrote it,  but I really like it.  I am going to maintain my integrity EVEN IF I AM THE ONLY ONE DOING SO.

I definitely would have stayed in the room.

I appreciate this comment.


I actually started out in a submissive role by my own choice in my r/s with my pwBPD, and then after talking about it in therapy week after week I came to realize that my pwBPD was not healthy enough to be in a dominant role with me and I broke out of that submissive role.