SELF ASSESSMENT | Depression Self Testing: Are you depressed?

[WhatJustHappened?]

Just scored a 60. Darn. Time for action.

[zonnebloem]

I test ... .46... .sure it will change once I accept that I move on from last love-affair.
Hanven't seen him since December. Haven't heard from him since last Tuesday when he texted : "Hugs and kisses." Hard to believe we are June,and I will spend summertime without him... .my happiness ... I make it depend on him... .he is not worth me waiting... .in vain... .for him... .
 

[Lagertha]

I have scored 70 points.

[nofightleft77]

Jeez... .56. And I'm feeling better than I was a month ago. I am not well.

[Flow201]

I've just scored 51. I feel awful but trying to keep strong. The emotional/verbal was just too much for me, and I'm trying to go NC which racks me with horrendous guilt and grief as I'm afraid I've abandoned him. Sometimes I'm not sure if the comments are BPD or if they are NPD. As he is undiagnosed I'll never know. and this upsets me too. I've blocked emails but some still get through, and sometimes they are so "normal" even though they've followed a particularly spiteful one. I don't know if its baiting or trying to get me to re-engage. I know he has little empathy for how low I'm feeling and doesn't seem to care I'm taking professional help.

[Pedro]

65 on the Depression Test today.

[Aesir]

I'm at 53. I have good days and bad. I'm 9 months out from the end of the relationship.

[Taketime]

51

[Rainmaker]

 I scored a 4 in 19 out of 22 questions. That's 76. Well, It kinda sounds bad. But it is what it is.
It's affecting me at work. Though I am supposed to be "intelligent" enough to do what is needed, my feelings or lack of them rather, gets in the way. And I keep procrastinating for ever. I've tried a lot of stuff, ranging from counseling to self-talk. but if at all I take off the ground, I juust stop in a few days.
:/
Green green was my valley earlier... .

[blooming]

I scored 59, I feel so lost.

[dumpsterdog]

The " how does depression distort yoru thinking " article... .is really scary... .every one of those definitions... .i attribute to " her "... I see every single one of those descrip[tions in " her "... .which really twists my head... because no im wondering if i really see those thing in : here ",, or if I am seeing those things in " me " and projecting them onto her "... .this scares me because its like i got hit by a big wave, i am underwate and oout of breath, and still dont know which way is up... .i score 47 on the depression test, so i am modeerstely depressed at th high end toward severely... .

[Notgoneyet]

 10 WOW with all I'm going through right now ,I'm sure as hell doing something right for myself.

[Anny-One]

I got 45.
I am struggling quite a lot with my BF.
He is cruel with name calling, yelling and lying

[dumpsterdog]

Any -one... thats where i was a few weeks ago, but i have gotten better by making an effort to hang out with old frineds, even had a lunch date with a female ... not to try and start a new relationship . but to keep on keeping on on... it is important to spend time with people that like you and do things that make you feel good or at least do activities where you can accomplish something and see the results and feel good about it... .keep on keeping on. dont sit in a puddle and wait for the rain to stop... get up and move.

[Bafoon]

I scored a 48

[Evil Genie]

about 40

[molarman]

Well... .I got a 52.   That's bad... .right?

[Cromwell]

17,

its helped me recognise a few things to work on such as getting my health and sleep back, Im in the mid of the mild depression category since getting back in contact with my BPDx which id not realised. good quiz

[RomanticFool]

16 months on from the last time I saw my ex, I am happy to report that my score was 5. I can’t actually remember what I scored several months ago but it was a lot more than 5. This doesn’t mean that I am miraculously cured of any kind of depression but it DOES mean that not seeing her has allowed me to emotionally detach from my extreme and obsessive emotions. It also tells me that as bored and unfulfilled as I may feel in a sexless marriage, not acting out has allowed me to heal. I am proud that I have not gone headlong into another damaging r/s but have focused on my wife and allowed her love for me to ‘be enough.’ I don’t feel I want to cheat on her, even though I do want a sex life. What I don’t want is the feeling of debilitating hopelessness and terrible unrequited love leading to a disastrous lack of self worth and suicidal ideation. Abstaining from abusive relationships really can bring us out of despair. Plus I have learnt much about myself on these boards.

RF

[singularity]

It's been a week now.  I'm at 66.  On the other test, I'm 16.

Urgh.  I can't concentrate, check my email often, procrastinate and can't eat.

The only thing I seem to be able to do is exercise.  I feel like I want to go to the gym and workout till I drop from exhaustion.

[vexedvegas]

Whoa. Scored 58, now what? 

[IAmPi]

Well over 50, probably less than 60. 

I'm starting to wonder if I shouldn't go totally NC but I don't really have anyone else if I do :/

At 58, Vexed, are you in a position to get counselling? I have been,  and it's what keeps me going

[SlothMaiden]

I got 50. Mostly because I have (not officially diagnosed) depression since 6 years ago when I was in grad school and I have just recovered. But then when I had my first boyfriend (now ex), turned out he possibly has BPD! Oh boy... .

The problem is I still want to contact him and it eats me up everyday.

[Laurentiu]

I had an failed attempt to leave the relationship, but returned after 5 months and now I score 74 ... I took this quiz just because I am closing open tabs in the browser ...  lost all interest in figuring out the problems ... lost all interest in everything
Feeling sad or down in the dumps?   4
Feeling unhappy or blue?   4
Crying spells or tearfulness?   3
Feeling discouraged?   4
Feeling hopeless?   4
Low self esteem?   3
Feeling worthless or inadequate?   4
Guilt or shame?   4
Criticizing yourself or blaming yourself?   4
Difficulty making decisions?   4
Loss of interest in family or friends?   4
Loss of motivation?   4
Loss of interest in work or other activities?   4
Loss of pleasure or satisfaction in life?   4
Feeling tired?   4
Difficulty sleeping or sleeping too much?   3
Decreased or increased appetite?   3
Loss of interest in sex?   4
Worry about your health?   3
Do you have any suicidal thoughts?   1
Would you like to end of life?   1
Do you have a plan for harming yourself?   1

[Hiding wife]

I scored a 36. Although I for the most part still feel like myself and have no thoughts of hurting myself this whirlwind is taking it's toll on me. I feel like a prisoner in my home and relationship. My husband goes everywhere I go and if I'm is a different room he checks my phone and the room constantly. He has a problem if I visit family, which I am very close to, for too long and thinks I'm sneaking off to cheat. And God forbid I miss a phone call.

[KoaPup]

I just scored 3. *I also just went back of 50 mg of Zoloft, and it at least helped me stop the kind of urgency feelings of "I must address this/solve this/be right". I think too though that finding this board did as well.

I had been on Zoloft, 50, 100, 150 mg but more recently at 100 until I left my job 5 weeks ago. Since then I stopped it (w/my doctor's agreement) and have been doing well. I've taken it off and on since 1994 when I'd had severe postpartum depression/anxiety/intrusive thoughts. Even the initial dose of 50 mg has helped, and I'm good to go, again.

Better life through medications until balance kicks in again. Self care.

[Schmem_25]

I think my score would vary day to day, but today I scored a 36. I usually don't have hopeless feelings, but COVID has brought these feelings on. I am an extrovert, and I miss my friends. I haven't seen my BPDm in a while, which helps, but being stuck inside has got me thinking about her so much. I find comfort in this site, though I think too it brings up a lot for me more often.

[Learning_curve74]

8/28/2013: 42 (about 6 weeks post-breakup)

Inbetween relationships: probably a 2 or 3

6/5/2020: 63 (about 3 weeks post-breakup of a different relationship)

I would've thought that I could handle it better this time around from all the self-discovery and personal growth I'd undergone since the first time I was on the boards. I learned so much about myself and understood my issues both within the relationship with my exgf and my relationship to myself. I'm not perfect, but I was comfortable in my own skin.

But the most current relationship that hit the rocks was so much better, secure, and healthier that I hurt worse now than the last time when I was in a much more dysfunctional enmeshed relationship. Before it was mostly just a day to day struggle, like just make sure we got thru the week and then the next and next and etcetera.

This time I felt so secure that we talked about not just tomorrow, but next month, next year, sharing our dreams and aspirations towards building a life together. This loss feels so much greater and cuts much deeper.

[satch]

This is a test developed at Stanford University by David Burns, MD.   Burns is best known for his book "Feeling Good" which is used in most commonly used support text for CBT programs.  It is a very simple test to take  ... .

What is your total score?  Let us know in the poll above and tell us (post) whether you feel good or are you struggling from effects of the BP relationship?

0= Not at all        1=Somewhat        2=Moderately        3=A lot        4=Extremely       

------- 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0

------- 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1

------- 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2

------- 3 3 3 3 3 3 3 3 3 3 3 3 3 3 3 3 3 3 3 3 3 3

------- 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4

------------------------------------ Feeling sad or down in the dumps? 2 Feeling unhappy or blue? 2 Crying spells or tearfulness? 1 Feeling discouraged? 4 Feeling hopeless? 3 Low self esteem? 3 Feeling worthless or inadequate? 3 Guilt or shame? 4 Criticizing yourself or blaming yourself? 4 Difficulty making decisions? 4 Loss of interest in family or friends? 2 Loss of motivation? 4 Loss of interest in work or other activities? 4 Loss of pleasure or satisfaction in life? 3 Feeling tired? 4 Difficulty sleeping or sleeping too much? 4 Decreased or increased appetite? 1 Loss of interest in sex? 4 Worry about your health? 2 Do you have any suicidal thoughts? Would you like to end your life? Do you have a plan for harming yourself?

[1Skintmama]

67..I don't know what to think of it.