Welcome
Firstly you are not alone and your situation is not unique. This position of hopelessness you find yourself in has evolved slowly over a long time and is not easily unpicked. It will take time.
Have a good read around this site and you will find lots of advice that make s sense to you. Have read through the
LESSONS. You will not be able to change him in the short term, nbut you will learn the importance on working on you, your values and boundaries, learning how to deal with conflict, or fear of it, more appropriately.
You may or may not save the RS, but you can certatinly get a better handle on it and how to help yourself and your kids.
Don't feel qguilty about taking so long to reach out for help. Many members have put up with this for 20-30 years before realizing they don't hav eto and it is possible to regain control of yyour life and prevent a lot of damage that can be inflicted on kids, and don't underestimate that.
Waverider