Sorry to see you feeling vulnerable, but it is good you found us.
It is all that much harder when you have a small child to contend with.
Whether you stay or not you need to learn more about this disorder and what you can and cannot do. There are tools to use that can help you reach better clarity and to at least stop things being worse than need be.
Have a browse through the Lessons in the menu on the right>> That wil help put things in a logical order for you.
Are there any particular aspects which are affecting you the most?
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