Progress

[Borderlinestar]

I have progressed. My level of acceptance has increased and i am not as fearful since removing myself from my family of origin. I will always remember that raw feeling of abandonment i avoided for years. It was the need for connection that was never there with my borderline alcoholic mother.  I am just relieved without the pressure and overdeveloped sense of responsibility. Being gentle with myself even though i know an emotionally developed person would have passed through this. My inability to face the pain held me into the disease. How i rationalized still being connected with her. I had to take space. I am free to grow now as an adult. Going sking again this week. intend to try some more black diamond runs. Being  mindful going side to side down the mountain  in the wilderness. By myself, laughing with God. Being with my husband.

  

[HappyChappy]

That's great news borderlinestar. You make some very insightful point, that I can relate to. It's encouraging to see progress, even someone else. Thanks for sharing.