I think I mentioned in my opening post yesterday (returning from not posting since October '12 and a couple recycles) that I finally closed the door on the r/s with uBPD/npd ex gf a month ago. I couldn't deal with the emotional abuse and the start of physical abuse. Went n/c and it has gone pretty well even though we live on the same street. I've had to walk the other way when I'd see her and her kids out playing. As one of my family members repeats to me "n/c means n/c".
Anyway, I was naive to think this wouldn't happen and it seems to be following the script per what I've read on this board , but the ex gf already has a new guy and he is already staying over. Wow. I read a thread yesterday about "what is the difference between us and them?". Well, I can say that while I work on myself and even work up the courage to have coffee with a cool lady who has asked me out, the ex gf already has new meat (new narcissistic supply). I shouldn't be surprised and it just reinforces that I think I never really knew that person.
I woke up at 4am this morning and journaled before going back to sleep. The words I wrote was about living my true self and writing down this date as being the day that I began to change my life and my future. It is now about me and as Ed Roland of Collective Soul says in "Better Now", "it's time to celebrate me".
Happens to the best of us. Sorry for your suffering but congratulate you on your attitude. Keep working on yourself and "celebrate" YOU every day.
