I have become a strange figure. I have shouted, demanded sex.
Why do you demand sex? True or False
A) My Boyfriend acts distant. This makes me very insecure and I think he is withdrawing from me. I need him to reassure me that we are still attached. I find sex a very easy way to feel better about the attachment. My boyfriend values me for sex- if he doesn't want it all the time I feel unappreciated. T/F
I have leaved,taken all my things and got a cab and didnt got back before plenty days later.
Why did you withdraw from him? True or False
B) I felt he was making me mad on purpose so I showed him that I could not be controlled. T/F
I have said lots of things. I have drunk wine late in the evenings, had sex with a total stranger because I didnt get sex with him.
C) Why did you have sex with a total stranger? True or False
I had sex with a stranger because it made me feel in control of myself. The stranger thought I was valuable and I felt better about myself while it was happening. I also did it (at the time) to punish my boyfriend. It made me feel better for a little while but now I'm feeling confused and feeling just as bad as I did before. T/F
I have become a drama lady.
True or False
D) Is "drama lady" more exciting to you than spinster lady? Does she make you feel so you don't have to feel the fear of being single (alone?) T/F
Maybe I am BPD as well? rolleyes
True or False
E) Have you ever truly been alone and without someone to attach to and felt OK about it- or does it cause you anxiety if you are not attached? When you are attached to someone, do you cling to them and end up hating them for controlling you with their movements away or toward you? Are you impulsive and constantly moving from one person to another so that you are never alone, feeling that the last person did not value you? Do you feel great unhappiness if relationships don't give you an identity to bond to and then you try to force them to value you in ways that may appear like control? T/F
