Hi, everybody!
How are you? I missed you a lot but with this house full of people, movement and true love it was no time to talk properly with my dearest fellows. I went a little bit to know about you but i just couldn´t feel space on my mind to write anything mindful. I just felt my love and prayed for you all. I miss you, i mean it.
The parties were a success. DS31 behaved like a prince. All these days since Xmas. He was very balanced, good humor, making fun of himself... . I really felt , in a good way, shocked. Everbody, the family´s ( close friends and my sister, his father, his step-mother, and sb ss, and my un-d as my SIl... . everybody had fun and told me he is much much better since the last meeting. WAW! OMG. How much i have to thank you all. DS cooked , with dh, a great salmon with sea food - it was the best recipe and he felt so glad because everybody ate it all. Happy New year ´s eve the same. He helped cleaning dishes, playig cards... . he lost the game but it was ok... and non-dd and SIL are such a lovely people. SIL has a autist 33 brother. They are form holland and we skype. I talked to my SIL´s mother a bit and we felt a lot of empathy. They are a nice family. DS31 came to know everybody at skype. The behavior of hte Autist and the BPD is very different. But they say "HI". :'( and then was enough to the guy.
During the parties i was felling all the time my wish to have all of you here with me to hug and say thank you.
After, i saw the pictures - a lot- and is quite clear the faces. People who accept him and who has much more difficult to it. He was all the time very acceptable but i could see some looks to him. I can´t judge a glance but i could felt .
After the photos i felt a little sad, but suddenly i got a storng feeling of acceptance and i could understand much better God gave me this son to be loved and to teach me a lot of things. I can see my issues much clear now... and my acceptance, spite the pain, grow each a day .
I´m not feeling good because the lupus in this hot sumeer get´s worse and i feel very tired. Dh is being supportive but sometimes he feels jealous, i think.
Since happy new year all of them went to the beaches... . and dh and i stayed quite at home. Relaxing, cooking, gardening... . no friens, no parties. just to of us... . the cats and the newest cat in the house. She is lovely. It´s funny to see the "guests" being so controlling... . stalking her all the time. I love cats. The way they behave is so elegant and soft. Each of them has his own "temper". They follow me all over the house: 4 cats and lupu´s woman
So, i ´ll read the posts and meet you ... . and share... .
I´m back girls... i wish you all a nice 2013!
