Hi everyone
Ive not posted for a while, although I do occassionally pop in here to read your posts
and to see how you are getting on.
On 19th Jan 2013, decided to have a break for 5 weeks from going online, could not even
switch my computer on, was finding everything too painful to look at. I became addicted
to various websites that my exbf uses and I needed to try and break the habits of reading
his posts and finding how much he is enjoying his life with new partner. Also I had read something
about him that confirmed my suspicions from last April.
Felt deeply sad but in a way, relieved that I am not crazy and paranoid like he would say I was.
Only wish Id listened to my intuition then maybe could have healed alot quicker... . hmmm... . dont know?
Anyways, over the last 4 weeks I have a new Therapist and see her every week. She has diagnosed
me with severe depression, of which I have been in constant denial. I have finally accepted now and
am working with T CBT. Currently not on medication, but I will not rule it out if its needed.
All I can do is one day at a time.
Also I am managing to overcome ":)ental phobia" and undergoing extensive dental work for years of neglect
on my teeth.
I have signed up with The Open University to study Pyschology in June this year at the suggestion from my
T. She thinks it will be good for me
