Part of my recovery/detachment

[flynavy]

Not sure if this would work for everybody, but I chronicled the last 2/12 years into a short story titled "My unfortunate 2 1/2 Year Ordeal with a BPD/NPD Woman". It is 12 pages long and 26,000 characters so I'm assuming that it cannot be posted here... .  or can it some how?  Anyway, it serves as a stark reminder to me anytime I feel I'm getting weak as I detach to never go back to that place.  I have posted excepts though.  It is amazes me the manipulative power she had over me after i read what I wrote... .  because if you are a casual reader not knowing what a BPD/NPD personality is capable of, your first question would be why stay after the first month.  The only thing i can say is people who saw me with her... .  her family... .  would say that I looked mesmerized when we were together.  Psychological manipulation has been used by cult leaders e.g. Jim Jones... .  some of you may be too young to remember this guy but the term drinking the Kool aide comes from this tragedy.  Just puttin this out there... .  I'm debating whether or not to keep the story.  I wrote it first person but knowing what i now know.  It's still hard to believe I put up with all that... .  getting better... .  movin on

[benny2]

Good idea and a good way to keep things in perspective. I just may try it, but I will have more than 12 pages to write going through the past 17 years. I may not live to write the ending

[Validation78]

Many of us here have kept journals over our time with our pwBPD. Many Ts encourage patients to journal their thoughts in order to allow them to express their thoughts and emotions, sometimes those we cannot express elsewhere. Writing is a great outlet, and if yours is in story form and it helped you by writing it, good for you. I called my journal, I must be crazy because when I first realized that something was not quite right in my marriage, I though it was me! I chronicled many events and conversations so I could look back and try and put the puzzle together. It helped to read it at the start of my detachment process since it served as a grim reminder of what really happened, as it was happening.

Best Wishes,

Val78