Cocoalover
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What is your sexual orientation: Straight
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« on: June 15, 2013, 07:26:55 AM » |
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After Three years, here I'm now!
I broke up with my b/f 3 years ago. Broken, devastated, down hit the bottom. I took one word (EMPTY)which he would use, searching on the internet one lead to an other then ended up here.
Most of you know what the pain like at the end of a relationship and after.
This site helped me a lot back then, reading posts on here most of times like mad, not fully recovered but went on life better than times arguing with him all the times.
I was bleeding , feeling confused ashamed to put up with so much emotional abuse. My love for him made me calm and not to react, leave him decide what he wanted. But do they know what they want? That's what made his life and mine hell. after
I started to believe that he was BPD,
Reading on here and my mouth open in disbelief. Took people's words on here and never looked back.
I'm a foreigner in the country and planing to go back home. So thought I'm over him and I'd call him for a coffee, the reason was, I never wanted to hurt him the slightest, and never did but feeling guilty that I would not answer his messages or emails after break up or I'd answer using wise words collage people's wisdom (my source was here) equipping myself to be ready for unknown coming from him. I knew he was lost, but I was too. God , looking back I don't know how I could manage living
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