Ex told me she is on suicide watch, feeling bummed and needing support.

[ConfusedEx]

Hello all,

My Ex and I broke up about 7 months ago. She was diagnosed bipolar but after googling the things that happened between us I was pointed to this website and BPD and it all made sense, every story on here was so like mine I as amazed. I was so heartbroken, it was the second time we had gotten back together then she cheated on me again and once again recycled one of her Ex's that she keeps on the side... . it was so unexpected because she talked hit on him our entire relationships then one day fell back in love with him and left me, after all I did for her. I loved her so much, and it hurt so much how I was manipulated, lied to, and used. With the help of this site I went no contact and eventually felt good enough that I didn't need to come back on here again, until now.

We were in an LDR and she left me for her ex who she got into another LDR with. She took him around town telling all our mutual friends how in love they were and how they were going to get married. I believe she devalues / gets bored after about 6 months of each relationship and sure enough after 6 months they broke up. I blocked her on all social media but my snoopy best friend saw they were broken up and she warned me that she was going to contact with me again and that she would kill me if I started talking to her. I assured her I wouldn't and sure enough that same week she texted me. I had been trying to get my things back from her after the break up and was suspecting she was going to use that stuff to get in contact with me again. She texted me that she would be back in town in June and I would get the stuff back then, and then asked me how I was doing. I simply responded "OK" and felt really good about myself. Later on a camping trip with one of her friends I over heard her saying that she was with a really ugly guy (weird because my ex is exotic and beautiful) and she was complaining on and on about how she couldn't just be single.

Anyway cut to now, she says she was going to have her friend drop off my stuff but she will just do it, I say ok just drop it off in my backyard when I'm at work Wednesday or Thursday. Doesn't happen and I am pissed and thinking how to ask her Friday what's going on, when she texts me that she is "on lockdown and won't be out til next week". I ask what's up and she says she is in the hospital. I simply tell her OK and to feel better, to which she says she is on "sutto suicide watch", and afterwards "I don't know y I told u that take care". I don't know what "sutto" is, but then again she has the vocabulary of a middle schooler and texts like one too, so I am thinking it could be "psuedo", but either way it really made me sad for her again anything because she basically suggested that she tried killing herself . My emotions were so conflicted when we broke up because I was so hurt and angry with her but also so sad for her because I tried so hard to help her and then she threw it in my face by getting back together with her abusive Ex. Should I forget the stuff? should I go NC again? Some of the things she has of mine have a lot of familial sentimental value and I'd like them back.

I'm sorry if I'm not being clear in what I need help with I am just hurting again and wanted some support from this great community that has helped me before. Thank you guys.

[ConfusedEx]

Also the guy she is with now, is the complete opposite of everything she told me thought was attractive in a man. She hated long hair, facial hair, and metal. She would yell at me to not play metal in my car when we would drive somewhere, and now she is a metalhead and is with a guy that embodies all these things... . so strange.