She called me last night to tell me she was officially moving away today. She is going 6 hours away with the last guy I shared her with... .
It has been a year since I first went NC.
Three times, in October, in March, and in June, we reconnected. The last time she was engaged, but I didn't know it. Once I found out, I didn't continue contact.
I have such mixed emotions today. On the one hand, I am almost relieved that she is moving and that I won't have to worry about her on any level (running into her, taking with mutual friends, etc.) On the other hand, I am really sad... . and a bit angry.
I am sad because she believes that she's all better (because she's going to counseling) and her emotions do appear to be under better control. But she has still never been alone, she is still lying and cheating per usual, and she is still triangulating
(read definition). I feel really sad for the guy whose marrying her; he is head over heels and doesn't speak very well of him, already now.
I am also sad about losing her... . finally and forever. I really am. It hurts a lot.
I am angry because it seems that they get a free pass. She is gonna hurt this guy. If he knew the truth about her, specifically that she's already cheated on him, then he would already be devastated. She was trying to be intimate with me in June; we slept together in March/ April. A part of me wants to call him and tell him, but i would never do that (although I've told my therapist that I honestly wish someone had warned me).
They make you feel so expendable, so worthless, so small... . and they seem to just chive on.
Paper doll, someone's gonna paint you another sky!
Interesting footnote... I was on Facebook this AM (never go on there) with the aim of checking out her page. Just curious I guess.
I'm blocked... . what's that about? Haven't done a thing to that girl... .