I've had two days of misery, constant weeping and feeling utterly sorry for myself, checking for his texts, culminating in the car not starting. This was the final straw and made me go wild with grief that he was no longer here to help.
I've just read the article
https://bpdfamily.blogspot.co.uk/2010/12/leaving-person-with-borderline_28.htmlIt's helped me enormously. I still feel pain and would love him to walk in the door and sweep me up in his arms but this insightful analysis has given me much more clarity and perspective. I've bookmarked it and am going to read it whenever I waver.
It's clear he wants distance which he achieved by moving out of our beautiful family home. But now he wants to behave like a knight in shining armour. Classic.