I saw you have a similar thread on staying - would you like to continue with both threads?
No I guess I would like to contunue this one. She has advanced her raging to now include removing her ring and very much letting me know she has. I know its an additional tactic to get further reactions out of me. She is trying everything she can to get me to "go back the the old me".
I think this is at the point of not being able to salvage this relationship. I struggel everyday to figure out how to deal with more intense and new attacts. She finds ways to make it hard to even respond. It all gets turned back to me. Infact she is even saying that I am turning it all back on her. Now to a certain point I believe that to be true. Her goal it seems in this is to make it so that I am not allowed to voice a decending opinion. As I have tried to tell her shouldn't I be able to? She hasn't flat out said no to that. She only says how I say it is mean and in her words I use "jack ass comments". She right now is huge on why I have changed. At this point I cant really say other than the old way wasn't getting u to a better place. Then the responce to that is "You think that being a jerk to me like you are is making it any better?" I have to admit to her its not. Becaue it isn't.
I think i need help to find the strenght and currage to walk away. I still have huge guilt of obligations attached I need to wokr through. If I were to llok at what happens if I stay... . I don't live a long life. I know I will be miserable and my mental and physical health will deteriorate. It just won't be fast enough to end the pain.
Wow i just re-read that and it make sme sound broken. I guess maybe I am. I'm still wanting to feel better and get myself better. This relationship isn't making that very easy to do.
