Recycle result

[Front runner]

Hi all, back again. Tried to resist but tough. Have been through a six week recycle and can report various things. Firstly from our first break up she had been seeing a therapist weekly since June and has had a stable job working as a nanny. So she was way more stable and grounded.

We didn't live together this time but I thought she might have done drugs with me a couple of times. I don't think she was sleeping around this time but had made friends and de friended people on face book that made me suspicious. During our two month no contact break up she slept with a lot of guys, maybe six and had a couple of relationships, one I suspect overlapping with me first time round before the split.

Anyway she wants to go back to work in the bar where all the trouble started and said she doesn't love me anymore. So good closure! But I still love her and feel like crap.

Sorry awful post... .

[Surnia]

Hi front runner

I hear you. Feeling like crap is a very uncomfortable place.  

Sometimes we need more than one try to realize that what we are doing is not healthy for us.

Could it be that you had some hope regarding her seeing a T weekly? Did you or she initiated the second time?

[irishmarmot]

Hi definitely can identify how u feel, recycled again with my ex of only 10 weeks.  And broke it off myself today changed my # and email address, but forgot she had my other phone #.  Just wants to be friends, i know if i want to get through this i have to be strong but it is tough.  Not going to be too hard on myself because it is so helpful to know that others are struggling too, i feel that eventually i will let go.  At any rate hang in there and even though my relationship was short it was intense and made me aware of my codependency issues so that is a good thing.