Weird question...

[going places]

I have a question, and I am not sure where to ask it.

I have been reading a lot, and spending time on this site, reading... .

Prior to Aug 2011... . I never had any issues, outbursts, crazy thoughts, nothing.

After the initial trauma Aug 2011, and then the second blow March 2012... . I was turning into this different person, I didn't know OR like.

For almost 3 years... . I was someone that I didn't know, like aliens took over my brain and body.

I said things, I've never said, did things, I'd never do, tolerate things, I've NEVER tolerated... .

I was told that PTSD can distort a person... .

Prior to 8/11 I was a STRONG woman, confident, etc.

After?

This quivering, ball of mess.

Prior?

Take charge, forge ahead, work it out or walk away.

After?

Couldn't make a decision to save my life, couldn't get out of bed... . for DAYS, couldn't think straight.

Here in the last 3 months, I am getting closer to being the "prior" woman... .

But I am seeing a lot of "symptoms" of BPD, that I have displayed for the last 3 years, but NEVER EVER have I displayed them prior to that.

From what I have read my stbexh is text book anti-social.

Is it possible the combo of the trauma, PTSD, etc is the root of the 'odd behavior' I displayed for 2.5 years?

[Narellan]

Possibly PTSD as we go through the hell of it all. To me it sounds like depression. What you're describing is what I've felt too, and I know I'm depressed ( I also took the poll on here). The good thing is... . It's perfectly natural to be depressed after these experiences. And as you said you are starting to feel better with each day.you will rediscover that prior woman you were as soon as all the residual fog dissipates . 

[Surnia]

Hi going places

I hear you - its quiet normal being not the same person after such experiences. 

I agree with Narellan, could be some depression. It needs time and some steady work. Like posting here, and good care of yourself. For example walking in fresh air, moving your body.

You may also look at this thread: https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=79772.0

[trappedinlove]

Going places, I started a discussion thread on a this topic that you might find interesting... .

See https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=223720.0

[going places]

TIL: I posted on the site you mentioned. Thank you!

[Indigo Sky]

Do you drive a car?

Where you focus is where you will go.