I feel so weak.

[Before you can make things better, you have to stop making them worse...]

Went to the heaeing. She was as hateful as the devil. The woman judge found me guilty and now have a year long restraing order for a year. Found out that ahe had the cops file the report with the DA and could face criminal charges which is bs. What a b!tch

[peiper]

Went to the heaeing. She was as hateful as the devil. The woman judge found me guilty and now have a year long restraing order for a year. Found out that ahe had the cops file the report with the DA and could face criminal charges which is bs. What a b!tch

[OutOfEgypt]

Oh no!  Well, let's hope there are no criminal charges.  Remind us... .do you have children with her?  Are you able to see the children?

[peiper]

Nope no kids, thank the good lord.

[Numbnut]

It's a blessing in disguise. . . . Makes NC that much easier. You can always move to (1) reconsider it or more importantly (2) make it mutual so she has to comply with the same restrictions as you do.  Now, you absolutely must document in writing any effort that she makes to contact you, and do not contact her, regardless of what she says, that it will be "informal," or whatever.  If she contacts you, you need to report it to the local police dept. as well, saying that this person has an R/O against you but is trying to entrap you into violating it.  Violating the RO is a criminal offense, for which the police will arrest you.  That is why it is so important to document any efforts at contact.

[OutOfEgypt]

Thank God.  Well then let's hope there are no criminal charges.  And I realize this sucks, but maybe it can be a blessing in disguise.  Think of it... .you get a break for 1 year.  You don't have to see her, and you can't contact her.  Sounds like a vacation.  Just be careful of her trying to contact or entrap you!

[peiper]

My T said Id could count on her contacting me once her family goes back to their normal lives and shes no long the center of attention. And I think shes right, it what shes done every time.

[peiper]

And the way I feel right now ill call the cops for her breaking the order  !

[christoff522]

Shes basically it seems unable to remember anything bout what happened... .I think she's repressed it cos of shame.

[peiper]

Yeah numbnut, it says in the court order "while this order of protection is in effect, the protected party should refrain from any act that would cause the restrained party to violate this order. This provision is not intended to and does not create a mutual order of protection"and she was instructed by the judge the same thing. So she can not contact me.

[OutOfEgypt]

I think someone is overdue for a nice vacation

[peiper]

I think so too. Im so pissed I feel like going to Vegas and getting a hooker. Of course Im not. But Im pissed. Like a dummy I looked her up on facebook. She has already changed her name and of all things she is using her married daughters  married last name. Totally weird.

[Soccerchic]

I was reading the above posts and just had to comment. I'm at a loss as to how twisted mentally rejecting all the men comment is. First of all, my friends and I would try to be kind to guys who hit on us.    It takes a ton of guts to approach a group of girls. Secondly, she so needed to keep you thinking that she could be snatched away at a moments notice which is most likely untrue.  Sounds like she like to fantasize that she was soo sought after proving to me that maybe that hasn't always been the case.  I'm so sorry that any one used your love and devotion against you as a weird weapon rather than be grateful she had someone that adored her. I once had a BPD friend (imagine that. Hmm a pattern of mine).  When we would head out dancing she would get super jealous if I got what she would perceive as more attention and would become quiet and sulky demanding to have the spot light or she wanted to leave. Her black hole of negative self esteem could never be filled up and she thought every one was staring at her. She was cute but people look all over. She wasn't the center of attention as she NEEDED to believe. 

[christoff522]

I was reading the above posts and just had to comment. I'm at a loss as to how twisted mentally rejecting all the men comment is. First of all, my friends and I would try to be kind to guys who hit on us.    It takes a ton of guts to approach a group of girls. Secondly, she so needed to keep you thinking that she could be snatched away at a moments notice which is most likely untrue.  Sounds like she like to fantasize that she was soo sought after proving to me that maybe that hasn't always been the case.  I'm so sorry that any one used your love and devotion against you as a weird weapon rather than be grateful she had someone that adored her. I once had a BPD friend (imagine that. Hmm a pattern of mine).  When we would head out dancing she would get super jealous if I got what she would perceive as more attention and would become quiet and sulky demanding to have the spot light or she wanted to leave. Her black hole of negative self esteem could never be filled up and she thought every one was staring at her. She was cute but people look all over. She wasn't the center of attention as she NEEDED to believe. 

Mine used to tell me that people were stalking her. Oh sorry... shes not mine anymore, force of habit.

She used to say people were outside her house laughing at her at 4am. A lot of BPD sufferers actually develop psychoses at times. Its very sad but true. It is shallowness, but it is mental illness. remember Borderline Personality Disorder is - Borderline narcissism. Thats what the borderline means.

They're essentially nutters.

[peiper]

I saw the narcissim very early when we were dating but figured on what the heck, I can handle that. What a dummy.

[christoff522]

I saw the narcissim very early when we were dating but figured on what the heck, I can handle that. What a dummy.

Yeah me too, her first words too me when she added me on facebook was "Will you be my gay best friend?".

Of course within a week I was her God, she wanted to give me her soul, she loved me, within two weeks she wanted me to be her 'father, brother, lover, shadow".

 

I thought it was odd, but I began to notice she only seemed to talk about herself, big herself up, complain about her bf at that time (he dumped her about a month after) and she kept saying how much she wanted me to hold her, would be quite aggressive when talking about sex, like how she wanted me to tie her up, dominate her.

Then other times she'd talk about wanting to destroy me... just out of no where.


I came to the conclusion, which I still hold to, that she's demonically possessed. She literally reminds me of what you see in films about demonic possession. I have also seen her sit up straight whilst asleep and look around, and talk gibberish and stuff. She also has auditory hallucinations. Very very strange.