I guess I am healing somewhat.
My wife is doing all sorts of crazy stuff. And I'm able to stay in wisemind.
What are other signs of healing?
For me personally, I know I am healing because:
1. I am aware of his attempts to gaslight or drag me into a conversation that leaves me hurt, empty or apologizing to him for his poor choices.
2. I do not spend any time in the thought process of "my life is ruined, my dreams are ruined, it's all your fault, bla bla bla". I instead when I feel that creep in... .I stop that thought process dead in its tracks and begin thinking of how amazing my life is going to be once this house sells.
3. The intense hate, anger, and desire for vengance that used to be a 10 is now only a 2, and a 4 when I have a 'flare up'. I am able to reign in the negative when it starts, whereas before... .it was so hard on me. Not him. Me.
4. I have blocked him from every form of communication except email... .and I will ONLY discuss issues pertaining to the sale of the house, and nothing more. The less I communicate with him, the faster the healing process has moved along.
5. I don't talk about him or what he did or the divorce. It's history. I am sick of hearing my voice when I talk about him... .and I don't like how it makes me feel inside. So I don't.
6. I don't focus on the "what I lost, time wasted, hurt and bla bla bla". I focus on the future.
Dating?
No way, not this gal.
No way.
I have kids... .albeit they are young adults... .but *I* have to heal me AND discover me. I need to stand on my own two feet.
The kids have been thru SO much these last 3 years. They lives have been shaken to the core. There is no way I would throw "me dating" into that fire. I would never do that to them.