My pwBPD is going through difficult times, which means major dysregulation. Meanwhile I am burdened with running (our!) business and financial disaster. He is either in the bedroom watching whatever or drinking and raging all over the house. 2-3 days a week he is sober, active and sociable and taking care of business. And still explosive any moment.
So I bury myself in work, and if I'm not working I'm on my own. I pay attention to him and ask if he wants a cup of tea, which he appreciates, but does not move from his screen. I don't avoid him but I take distance being busy elsewhere. I feel guilty for it, but I think I shouldn't.
Tomorrow I'm going to meet a friend, we're going to make a good walk and a nice meal and just talk. I'm going to spent an entire evening with a sane person!
