Time of day triggers depression

[Left broken and confused]

Does anyone notice that no matter what you are doing at a certain time of the day depression hits? I am beginning to notice that between 4 and 5pm no matter what I am doing or who I'm with I seem to get very depressed and anxious.  Yesterday I was at the mall with a friend completely fine then all of a sudden it hit me. Today I was at a party at a friend's house same thing happened. I have noticed it before but figured maybe it was because I wasn't busy enough. I can't understand it because I was normally not with him at that time anyway.

[Faith1520]

Not specifically. For me the worst times are first thing in the morning (it's the first thing I think about and sometimes makes it hard to get out of bed and face the day) and at night. I feel the most sad and lonely at night.

Maybe (depending on your schedule) you can make a point to do something self soothing at that time... .something you enjoy that will relax you and take your mind off your ex.

[Left broken and confused]

I also have a hard time first thing in the morning and the last few nights I wake up every hour it seems. I thought I was over not being able to sleep but I guess not. :'(

[Sandman1881]

I do feel the same regarding time of the day. I notice that every day as 730 pm approaches I start to get nervous and anxious. That's the time when my ex would come home from work. One of my biggest triggers now is hearing a train horn. It's nearly incessant. It seems like that train goes by every fifteen minuets or so. That was the train she used to take when she would start some bull___ fight with me and then run so she could have her freedom to cheat.

I want to run away myself and hide from that sound because it's a constant reminder of what I went through. But I know if I run I'm I'm just giving in to the thoughts that come into my mind. I'm trying the best that I can to reverse that power and draw on it to somehow remind me that I'm better than that. I allowed this woman to take my power from me and I want it back. I want to fight back and prove to myself that I can in fact make it through on my own will and determination. If I just give up and give in then I see it as rather than her taking it (my power) I'm just giving it away and that does nothing for me and I'm just keeping myself down. So yes,  every day near 730 pm my person does experience what has been precondioned.

[Earthbayne]

Probably Sunday mornings. I was almost always with her on Sunday mornings and it was pretty much the only time we were never fighting or arguing or triggered. Very rare, even if we had fought on Saturday night. It was almost as if Sunday mornings were our "purest" time. So, for the last 4 Sundays, the morning has been weird for me after a year and a half. It's the one thing I really missed.

[maxen]

i have a bad reaction immediately on waking, for about 45 minutes. it's gone through phases, at first a true terror (this was when i also had tachycardia and was sleeping about 4 hours a night), then a deep misery, now a sort of sadness. so improving, but not gone, and i'm 17 months out. it's there no matter how deep my sleep or how good or bad my dreams. i have no explanation for the time of day it happens. perhaps as the divorce finishes it'll change again.

going through this has been a real lesson in emotional experience. i would very much like to know why i'm wretched on waking but more importantly i'm learning to live through it. i would like it to go away but i'm learning how to pull myself out of it. i'm learning to live through all sorts of emotions and reactions that i've never had before.

[emancipated]

Hey

I feel the same way as far as times of day being harder than others. And the fact I can't sleep ATM.doesn't help

My ex had me.pretty.well trained to talk her all day. On the way to work between 730-8 am ... 1130 am she would leave dor lunch and she would call... At 501 pm when she got off work I would get a call or a text after 5 months it has changed but knowing there is a replacement filling those times doesn't help. Before the worst was the middle of the night compulsively thinking about what they were doing together... I thought I was goin crazy . now for the most part I still think about her every day and anyone who knows my story seems to think when she is done with my old.crusty replacement she will come back so now it almost feels like walking in the dark anticipating an attack and not knowing from where or how it will happen