Help in interpreting the meaning of this song from my uexBPDgf

[Family Court Strategies: When Your Partner Has BPD OR NPD Traits.]

So, I'm in 5 weeks of NC with my exuBPDgf. I have a Spotify account which she also accessed from her PC sometimes (I didn't remove her laptop from the account devices).

Anyway, approx. 2 weeks ago (this also coincided with her unblocking me in whatsapp; however we kept NC from both sides) she added in her preferred list of songs this song from Damien Rice called "9 Crimes":

www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/damienrice/9crimes.html

www.youtube.com/watch?v=cgqOSCgc8xc

To me this seemed odd, since the last time she added a song in her preferred list was like 3 months before.

I've read the lyrics and, to me, it seems some sort of apology towards me, even if the song may somehow justify her behaviours. What do you think?

After she added this song, she didn't access anymore the account. Sounds to me quite BPD-ish... .

[Fr4nz]

So, I'm in 5 weeks of NC with my exuBPDgf. I have a Spotify account which she also accessed from her PC sometimes (I didn't remove her laptop from the account devices).

Anyway, approx. 2 weeks ago (this also coincided with her unblocking me in whatsapp; however we kept NC from both sides) she added in her preferred list of songs this song from Damien Rice called "9 Crimes":

www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/damienrice/9crimes.html

www.youtube.com/watch?v=cgqOSCgc8xc

To me this seemed odd, since the last time she added a song in her preferred list was like 3 months before.

I've read the lyrics and, to me, it seems some sort of apology towards me, even if the song may somehow justify her behaviours. What do you think?

After she added this song, she didn't access anymore the account. Sounds to me quite BPD-ish... .

[mitatsu]

Remove her access its a form of control re-engaging the F.O.G around you and as you can see its starting to work... .stay strong friend 

[Fr4nz]

Remove her access its a form of control re-engaging the F.O.G around you and as you can see its starting to work... .stay strong friend  

mitatsu, thank you for keeping me in line :D

However, the main interpretation seems to be in line with what I thought:

https://www.lyricinterpretations.com/damien-rice/nine-crimes

So I confirm: this was really a BPD-ish thing... .continuing NC, don't worry.

[Infared]

I agree with Mitasu... .stay away from the games. The song could mean anything or nothing.

Save you. Go total NC.

[FlSunshineGirl]

She may be sending you a message. My ex use to "speak" to me through song messages. One of his favorites was "Hate Me" by Blue October.

But you just never know with a pwBPD.

If there is anyway for you to deny her access or delete that account or program I would recommend it.