I am 10 months out today

[disillusionedandsore]

Hi everyone,  feeling a little stirred up and upset,  yet I want to 'celebrate'  being out of my relationship for ten months now.  God I thought I would never be able to do it... .yet here I am today clocking up ten calendar months already... .I am still haunted by the memories and still grieving but I feel like I have been let in on some great secret that  most of the world doesn't know about and I have am grateful for that. It has been a truly gut-wrenching yet liberating process this far.  BPD has rarely left my mind in all that time. This awareness has really blown my socks off and I look forward to the day when I will be like' oh BPD oh yeah... .long time ago... .' 

[Agent_of_Chaos]

Strange. I am also 10 months out and feel somewhat similar. I am no longer cloaked with daily depression but am hung up on the memories. I do not stew in them but I walk a fine line. I could easily fall into a slump if I don't keep myself in check. Certain talking points about the relationship are instant tear jerkers but other aspects are not. Even if I think about her being with my replacement that doesn't hurt near as much as when I think about her amile. I am grieving, but on a different level. It may be alow progress, but it's progress none the less. I am grateful you shared your story and look forward to your success.