Ahhh... .2 and 5 are such wonderful ages. Thank you for telling me about them. And I want to tell you that I believe with all my heart that you will see them and hold them again. You and I are going to keep talking on this forum and we're going to keep working at laying the groundwork with our children so that we can continue to be in their lives.
As for my story... .well, I practically wrote a novel on it two posts down from this one. LOL. It's under "Two daughters with BPD" or something like that. You'll need that cup of coffee to get you through all that I wrote! Only recently have I reconnected with my two daughters, but this was after weeks/months of zero contact and me constantly imagining the worst. And I totally know that my future holds more periods of disconnect with my girls. But, I accept that (radically!

) and I feel peace today because I got to spend time with one of my daughters yesterday. It was a true gift!