So, a few weeks ago I made a topic (
https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=289741.0) where I explain that I'm out of the crazy-making relationship for over a year now. I feel good, everything is fine. After depressions, anti depressives and a lof of soul searching I am now finally happy with myself, my social life, my hobbys, my work, you name it. No reason to get into contact with my ex, thankfully.
However, as you can read in the link I posted above, a few weeks ago my ex contacted me through email. It was a very confusing email, telling me she doesn't want to get back together, but she misses the times we have and called me 'special'. Keep in mind she's living with my replacement already.
While I had some low contact a few days after that, ending with me telling her (very neutral, not with emotion) that I want to end this contact and wishing her the best, I guess her contact has resulted in her finding a way in my thoughts again. The past couple of weeks, while I don't feel really sad and can function just fine like I have been the past half year, she is on my mind more than usual. Sometimes in dreams, sometimes during the day. She has created an urge in me to contact her again.
Now, what good would that do? Why would I even want to contact her? What do I have to say? Nothing. I don't want to get back together, but I can't deny the pull I'm feeling, just the way I was feeling it during all those on/off times during our relationship. With little contact she has created this urge in me again and its difficult to contain myself to not get into contact with her.
If anyone has some tips for me to find some peace of mind again and to stop me from contacting her during a lonely night or just a weak moment during the day, that would be greatly appreciated. I see myself (with no disrespect to the persons dealing with it) as a recovering alcoholist, and the bottle (as in, her) is calling me again. A sip could destroy all (or some of the) progress I've made. I have to be strong but I can't deny I would greatly appreciate your help. Thanks in advance.