Things are going ok right now. Some days are better than others (some moments are better than others). He is saving money to move right now. I have moved to another town. We are still in contact, but rarely, and just on the phone. He is saying things like maybe when he gets established and when I get established, in a year or so, maybe we could try to work things out. This will not happen; this relationship very nearly destroyed me. But for now, I just let him say what's on his mind. I fear triggering another suicide threat if I say anything else (he seems to be doing pretty well considering the circumstances, but the smallest things can set him off).
Hobbies, hmm. I need to get out more. Even if I'm alone, just being around other people would probably help. But honestly, I am enjoying being alone and just being. Being allowed to just be without fear of his jealousy. He tended to talk nonstop and sort of demanded constant attention, so I am also enjoying some peace and quiet.