Moving back in with BPD partner

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My dBPD husband and I have been living apart since his mental health breakdown in April 2023. The separation was imposed on us, first by his hospitalization and then by a Protective Order brought by the court against me. In hindsight, it was the best thing that ever happened for me, as it enabled me to see that his behavior towards me had been abusive throughout our 10-year marriage, and also for me to recognize that I had been enabling and reinforcing the abuse.

Now, it looks like the court is about to modify the Protective Order so that I can move back home. Does anyone here have any experience of moving back in with a BPD partner following a long period of separation?

We are both having individual therapy and my husband has agreed that we should probably seek couples therapy when I finally move back home.

My gut feeling is that I need to take things slowly. I intend to keep the lease on my apartment for at least a few months and gradually start to spend more time at home. I'm conscious that it will be very hard for us not to fall back into the same old patterns that we had before, especially going back to living together in the same house where all the abuse and enmeshment took place. But at the same time, I think it might be an opportunity for both of us to heal, if we can get it right.

Thoughts anyone?

[LittleRedBarn]

My dBPD husband and I have been living apart since his mental health breakdown in April 2023. The separation was imposed on us, first by his hospitalization and then by a Protective Order brought by the court against me. In hindsight, it was the best thing that ever happened for me, as it enabled me to see that his behavior towards me had been abusive throughout our 10-year marriage, and also for me to recognize that I had been enabling and reinforcing the abuse.

Now, it looks like the court is about to modify the Protective Order so that I can move back home. Does anyone here have any experience of moving back in with a BPD partner following a long period of separation?

We are both having individual therapy and my husband has agreed that we should probably seek couples therapy when I finally move back home.

My gut feeling is that I need to take things slowly. I intend to keep the lease on my apartment for at least a few months and gradually start to spend more time at home. I'm conscious that it will be very hard for us not to fall back into the same old patterns that we had before, especially going back to living together in the same house where all the abuse and enmeshment took place. But at the same time, I think it might be an opportunity for both of us to heal, if we can get it right.

Thoughts anyone?

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[kells76]

While I don't have personal experience with that kind of situation, I've read about similar situations here on the boards.

It does seem wise to keep the apartment, and do a more gradual transition back, versus "suddenly back to normal".

It may also be wise to have a third person referee and structure the process, so that it isn't one of you making the decisions about "this isn't working". Having a neutral party manage the timeline, with "go"/"no go" metrics, could help keep this from turning into a partner conflict -- i.e., I could imagine a couple working on having one partner move back home, and the "in home" partner thinks "I need XYZ to happen before a full move back" but the out of home partner thinks "everything looks great on my end, let's go fully back", and the issue becomes, once again, how do the partners deal with that disagreement. I wonder if that speaks to your concern about going back to old conflict patterns. The content of the issue would be new (moving back together) but has the structure of coping with conflict changed meaningfully.

Do you think you and your H could reach agreement about getting a couples counselor involved as the "timeline referee" before you fully move back, instead of waiting for couples counseling only after you move back?

If not, I wonder if your individual therapists could work together as the process/timeline referees for you both.

Glad things are looking hopeful for you both right now.