Its really hard to let go even over 4 months later

[alwayswrong4]

I was looking in my phones cloud software today and i found a video of her i made before she left me to visit her parents while we were dating. Right around our first anniversary. It made me shed a few tears. I made the video jokingly saying I was going to need it if she never came back so "I could remember the person who used to live here". She told me that she wanted me to just call her up and tell her I love her and to always say goodnight to her and I said "ok baby I love you goodnight"

Little did I know how much foreshadowing this would be because now she lives with her Dad, at her parents house in Florida. Which is where she was going to visit the time I made the video. Now I'm left here with this video I ironically made. She looks so in love with me in the video. I don't know what changed and I can't help but to believe she'll come back to me at some point. I've never loved anyone so deep in my entire life. I am trying to date and not think about it but I still dream about her and am so heartsick.

Absolutely no one or nothing can measure up to her and I have such an attachment even still. I haven't talked to her in over a month and a half. She initiated some contact with me last month which I ignored. She showed up at a friends birthday party she knew I would be at and that was the last time we talked. She made a big scene and went running out of the party crying. I followed her and we talked for the first time face to face since we had broke up. She told me we were't meant to be and we weren't good for eachother... I just agreed and stayed as non argumentative as I possibly could. She proceeded to unload all of her emotions on me, it didn't bother me at the time but then later I decided I couldn't handle anymore contact from her since the dumping of her emotions was making me incredibly sad and depressed.

She moved to Florida about a month ago from the midwest and I haven't heard anything from her since. I don't know if I will. After we broke up I never went more than a month without her reaching out but now its been a month and a half without her sending me anything.

[hopealways]

I remember those days when I like you would look back and wonder why it has taken her so long to recycle me. 
"But she never went longer than 30 days and now it is 31 days." Thoughts like that.
They always talk about being loved just like yours did.
Mine would say "... .and even though I did x y z you still loved me."
It takes some time and an event, an epiphany, some type of realization to jolt you into your senses, and then you are on your road to not giving a rat's arse.
Like me realizing how gross my replacement was. Ew. She chose to be with that dude over me? Um no thank you. I lost all interest after that and am so glad I found out.

[JJacks0]

My ex and I never went a day without speaking for 7 years. Then we went 9 days without talking and I thought that was huge. Then 90 days. Now it's been nearly 150. It's kind of heartbreaking to look at that way, but I know just what you mean ... .I keep thinking it could never go this long, it's never gone this long before. Now I don't know either, maybe I won't ever hear from her again.

It's been 8 months for me and I still miss her too.