I think i'm having a nervous breakdown

[David67]

I'm struggling to cope with absolute chaos, the contradiction the madness. I feel like i'm living down the rabbit hole.

[Mint julep]

SO , I am also  newbie here! Just read you post feel the same way. My solution was to break up with my partner whom I dearly love and get counseling which I did and that really helped. Now he is calling and creating chaos from the telephone... .please stay connected with this website. Be safe and seek out some support immediately!

[Gemsforeyes]

Dear SO (and Mint Julep)-
I am very sorry you are in so much pain.  Most everyone on this forum either has felt, or is feeling very similar to, if not exactly, what you are feeling now. You will learn that, the more you read this forum. 

It's a scary feeling and I was in your skin not very long ago.  People here can help you understand the reasons for these feelings and reactions.  Your feelings do make sense.  During this most difficult time for you, please try to have compassion for yourself.

SO -do you feel that your emotional or physical health and safety may be at any risk?  Sometimes we truly do need outside assistance.  I did need help but I didn't recognize it.  I had isolated myself so much that my friends hadn't seen me.  I happened to be on the phone with a friend from out of town.  She realized I was in dire straits and called the paramedics when we hung up.  For the first time in my life, I desperately needed them. 

If you feel at risk at all, please get to a safe physical place where you can be comforted - even if it's to a fire station.

When you're safe, please come back to the boards, where people are ready to both support you and learn from you.

Warmly,
Gemsforeyes

[DaddyBear77]

Hey David67 - I'm glad you found your way here.

This is a great spot to start climbing your way out of the rabbit hole - that's what I've been doing, and it's working.

I started here about 6 months ago, and when I first got here, I was neck deep - every day was another (unchecked) bit of crazy-making behavior, thoughts, ideas.

If you feel up to sharing more of what's going on with you, I'm sure we can help get you back to center.

As Gemsforeyes and Mint Julep both said, you really DO have to think about your own safety and well being first and foremost. Here's a link you might find helpful Safety First

[Gemsforeyes]

Dear David67 - I'm so dumb! I thought your name was SO... .sorry... .