Life after chaos

[mraa90]

Hello, Family

It has been a while, and today I'm back almost a year after my breakup. To keep it short, I went through the same story as everyone else. Started well and then it went downhill. Silent treatment and then left me for no reason. It was my fault for trying to make it work the whole time, it ended up only hurting me. I had no self-respect or love at all.

During summer I was trying to find myself after what happened. It was like hell, and I wanted to die really bad. I tried going out with girls but it never felt the same for me. I was certain that my life will remain the same, just pure sadness until the day that I die.

Three weeks ago, I started talking to a girl I met on Instagram last Summer. I never thought of her or anything, she was just a random person that I added. We started talking and then she suggests that we meet to get something to eat. We were both nervous but we did it. It just clicked and we started talking more and more, and since I have been living in regret since last year, I didn't want this chance to slip so I asked her out on a date. We met for the second time last Sunday and we are both clearly crazy about each other. The date went well and I actually went for the kiss. I'm actually happy because I was abused in so many forms that I have been afraid of touching anyone, but I swear it just felt so good. My soul was so calm and I know that there's life after a failed relationship with a person that has mental problems.
Back then I was afraid of talking to my Ex because every day she would have a different mood, happiness, anger, sadness and I didn't know what to do. Stepping on eggshells a lot of you might refer it to.

I just came here to say what a lot of people told me when I was leaving the relationship. It gets better, and I promise you will find another person that treats you better eventually. This person treated me so good that the last 2 weeks with her is worth all my relationship with my ex. You wake up in the morning from a text so sweet instead of being afraid of dealing with a person that might cause you emotional harm.
Love is beautiful and loving a BPD person that isn't willing to see a professional help isn't love it's just mental torture for a healthy person like yourself.

I hope we all find someone that matches our love level and to find happiness today, tomorrow, and always. 

Goodbye

[JNChell]

Glad to read this! I like a good success story. Keep us updated.

[once removed]

hey mraa90, i remember you and im glad you came back with an update.

Three weeks ago, I started talking to a girl I met on Instagram last Summer.

if youre exploring a new relationship, id also encourage you to work with us on the Learning board. after our relationships, its a good idea to learn some new things, and get some feedback from folks who are also getting back out there or have been out there a while.

[blueblue12]

mraa90, great to read your healthy news. It’s hard to restart and work towards a new normal journey, let alone contemplate a relationship after a long length of time with a pwBPD, so it’s reassuring to read your post, wish you much happiness.