2 years married to wife with BPD.

[Depression = 72% of members]

2 years together and she was just diagnosed in march of 2019. Its been a rollercoaster of emotions. One minute she loves me deeply and the next she hates everything about me. I have done a crap ton of reading and learning about BPD. She continues to push me away, she doesn't believe anything i say. She says she cant trust me and that I lie about everything. 2 weeks ago she told me she didn't love me and that I was never apart of her life, she was just trying to fit me in.
I feel so lost and alone. I feel worthless and I wish this pain would go away.

[AMT]

2 years together and she was just diagnosed in march of 2019. Its been a rollercoaster of emotions. One minute she loves me deeply and the next she hates everything about me. I have done a crap ton of reading and learning about BPD. She continues to push me away, she doesn't believe anything i say. She says she cant trust me and that I lie about everything. 2 weeks ago she told me she didn't love me and that I was never apart of her life, she was just trying to fit me in.
I feel so lost and alone. I feel worthless and I wish this pain would go away.

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[Harri]

Hi and

I am sorry for what brings you here.  I can hear the hurt in your words.  You are not alone in this.  We have many members who have been through similar so you are in good company.  Things can get better for you so I hope you post more and keep reaching out for support. 

If you had to pick one thing to get help with, what would it be? 

[Ozzie101]

You're not alone, AMT, I can promise you that.

My H threw some very hurtful words at me when he was dysregulating and I, too, felt completely alone and like I must be the worst person in the world. People here really helped me to understand BPD and get a better handle on my situation.

I hope you'll keep posting and let us know more so we can help you! We're here and listening.