A world of hurt and confusion

[Sam1830]

My life is a mess. 27 years marred with a wife I refer to as my better half. Shes the love of my life and I would have done eny thing to make her happy. But I've changed. I have been thinking of the best way to end the pain. My thoughts are dark and rational. I know them to be wrong but I'm comfortable with them. I need some help.

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[khibomsis]

Hey Sam, welcome to BPD family! I am so sorry for your walk through the deep dark recesses of your mind. Well done for reaching out!  You are not alone. Here are plenty of kind compassionate people who are walking the same road as you, we help you hold the lantern and find your way out of it. I was in the same place when I came to this site, and when I look back over the years I can see how BDPfamily helped turn things around for me and my loved ones. This place works 

Can you tell us more about your situation? The more we know the better we can help.
In the meantime you urgently need some selfcare. Is there a friend or family member you can reach out to? An activity you can do that makes you remember you are worthy, and worthy of love?

Sending you positive energies!
 
Khib