Hi
Mil8 and welcome

You've come to the right place for understanding and support, you are not alone.
It certainly helps to talk, there is much wisdom here and world class resources. And thousands of hugs

It's been a roller coaster Mil8 and I hear you are scared, whatever the outcome. What behaviours led to you seeking custody? It can help us to know what you are dealing with your daughter. Does she recognise her struggles?
Your GD is lucky to have you in her life, things can get better.
Small steps, day by day.
WDx