How to deal with stress and not run away like a child

[Arran]

Hi anyone who reads this. I have bpd and I’ve spent my life ruining every relationship I’ve ever had with anyone. I’m an emotional wreck most days and find myself daydreaming daft scenarios that don’t even make sense tbh. I’m so paranoid for no reason. I’m ruining my relationship because I have the stupidest ideas in my head. I can’t take the medication the drs give me as I can’t work or think straight on it. Does anyone have any tips to deal with stressing situations? I feel like I can’t talk to anyone without acting like a fool. It’s like I’m stuck as a teenager but I’m 33. I can’t talk to anyone about anything stressful without acting like a fool. I have to take myself away from the situation or I get super angry and suicidal over the smallest things. Sorry to rant I’ve dealt with this for 12 years but as I’m getting older I can’t carry on like this. I need some help. If anyone has any advice Id be very grateful. Thanks

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