Ditto on remembering the thinking that "i cannot abc..just cannot"
Most of the time (after time passed) something did happen, but it wan't abc...and no it wasn't necessarily pleasant, yet you could move through it.
I want to pause and focus on something your T said. That she was worried about him finding out about a po box (and perhaps other "private" or "secret" things)
Can you expand on what you and the T have talked about?
Does the T think you should NOT do these things?
or
That you should not keep those things "private"? (I'm reluctant to use "secret" too many times)
It's important that we all have privacy for our affairs.
Sometimes...sometimes, it's best to just come out and announce what you are going to do, let them rage and get over it, rather than trying to "hide" things, have them find out and rage.
Anyway, I definitely want to understand this concern the T raised better.
Last: What can you do...RIGHT NOW...to get to feeling better. A quick and energetic walk? Meditation?
Best,
FF