Hello everyone,
I’ve been broken up and no contact with my BPDex for about 2 months now. I’m spiraling right now and what not. I’m filled with panic, feelings of desperation, yearning, loneliness, regret. I’m the one who broke up with her, but I am torn on that decision every single day.
I’ve been inhaling information about BPD, whether it’s personal testimony’s, medical journals, or YouTube videos. What should I do? Would a no holds barred, from the heart message likely show her how much I cared and still care for her? I feel like I’m losing my mind.
Deep Blue
Deep Blue you are bound and determined to go against the grain. So do as you see fit. However, use common sense. You have immersed yourself in plenty of information and you are on a path to healing right now. Do you want to start all over and jeopardize that and literally make things even worse?
You are too vulnerable right now and anything you send right now comes from a place of weakness and desperation. You would just be fluffing her ego.
You broke it off. It was a wise decision. Why would you willingly entertain that kind of chaos back into your life? That is unhealthy. Perhaps you need to focus on yourself and figure out what it is that is keeping you tied to her.
I will support you one way or the other because you need help and besides no one can tell you what to do. You are responsible for your own choices and decisions.
I just wish you the best of luck.
Cheers and best wishes!
-SC-