What do I miss exactly?

[NotAHero]

 Do I miss being screamed at in front of the kids? Do I miss being devalued on daily basis ? Do I miss being made to feel less? Do I miss having to deal with “love tests” then weaponizing my reactions ? Do I miss being told not to have a healthy weight or habits ? Do I miss the Russian roulette of drinking / smoking weed on her part and the nights of horror? Do I miss the violence and having to cover my face and head from punches and slaps ? Do I miss the smear campaigns and distortions ? Do I miss being back stabbed while trying to defend her? Do I miss the emotional unavailable partner ? The non supportive spouse ? The one who never defended me behind my back but always joined in any type of attack against me? Do I miss the threats of leaving and actually leaving ? Do I miss the gas lighting and manipulation ?

 What do I miss, exactly?

 Whoever needed to hear this, do yourself a favor and distance yourself from the relationship with someone who never cared enough or formed a real bond to do any work on their part.

[WhatToDo47]

Thanks. This really helped and was just what I needed today! Better times ahead for all of us, I pray.