August 26th she put my belongings in garbage bags and delivered them to my door. I am struggling with the loss and the grief even though it was toxic and painful nearly every single day for the 6 years we were together.
I miss her even though she was so challenging to be with and chaos ruled the day. My heart is shattered and I am working so hard not to reach out to her as I know there will be no empathy, no safety, no softness. I am also quite certain she has moved on with someone I know. I am feeling broken and discarded after trying so hard with her. Making so many sacrifices for her and for what I thought was love. This emotional devastation has me blindsided and doubting myself in every way. I am struggling. I have to wait 2 more weeks to see a therapist. The grief is searingly painful.
Sorry you are going through this.
The healing process from a relationship of this type and length will not be immediate or quick. But it will happen as long as you put in the work. Accept the end, go no contact, work on yourself, get therapy, take the time to grieve and in time you will see the relationship for what it was: a nightmare.
