Yup.
The most important thing about all of this is that I'm learning to know myself.
To understand and forgive me.
Respecting my time, my space and my wishes.
That for a long time were linked to the happiness of the other.
Thank you so much for your words!
When you are in the midst of a difficult life change it isn't at all uncommon to have contradictory feelings. You can feel guilt, regret, relief, anger, sadness--almost all at the same time. This is natural, and it's especially true with the kind of partners we deal with here, because they often have different sides of themselves that they can show at different times. They can be furious, and smile at you an hour later, loving, and then suddenly nasty.
The best cure for what you are going through is time. No reason to kick yourself. Don't allow anyone to tell you how you should feel. Do what you think is best, including anything that might help you to be a little less stressed (other than major drugs!) and allow your feelings to sort themselves out.
