Well since I suggested about providing updates on D by email whenever requested and sending bi-weekly photos, I’ve heard absolutely nothing. It’s been a good week I think.
This shows you where his priorities are, "nothing".
I am trying to come to terms with the fact he may well have finally given up, after I have not accepted his request for me to unblock him, but still can’t shake the lingering feeling that something else is yet to come.
Follow your 'gut' feeling on this, you must always keep this in the back of your mind, have a plan ready, if that 'something else is yet to come'. In the meantime, try not to dwell on it too much, and live your life with your baby the best you can, as only you can take care of yourself and your child the best.
I hope soon it will start to feel easier to exit this limbo and move on with my life. I have this fear that I won’t be able to let go of it all and he might finally have a wake up call, sober up, get proper treatment and renter our D’s life in a new, more stable relationship.
If he is truly has a personality disorder, this is 'wishful thinking' and is unlikely to happen. However, if it does, like the 'something more to come' feeling that you have, please make sure you have some kind of plan in place if and when this does happen.
Be sure to take care with self-care.
SD
