Even after a year and a half (divorced in 2011 after 36 yrs), I still have triggers. I still get blindsided when I least expect it. I just want this nightmare to be over. I'm just hoping that the pain will get less and less as time goes on, and eventually it will go away. Just when I feel like I'm moving on and doing okay, some bizarre memory will come back, and it's like I'm right in the middle of all the insanity again. I can't believe how long this process takes, especially the longer you are married or involved with this person. It's like a death, only worse, because he is still out there. For a while I worried about him, but now he has moved on to a new relationship. So good for him. Who knew I'd be the one still struggling?
It's like waiting for mike Myers to reappear. Even though you've killed him multiple times, he still keeps finding a way to pop back up.
I can't stop dreaming about her, so even when I sleep I am not at peace. This truly is as bad as them passing away knowing they are, or the person you thought you fell in love with it's never coming back. I mourn a death in myself as well as I'll never be gullible to the innocence of love again. It's more like all is fair in love and war.
