My husband has a big week ahead of him, lots of garunteed triggers. He is in therapy but it seems like his therapy just puts him in a bad mood for a few days. Add that to this week and I have this feeling of impending doom. It's very hard to shake for me when I know there is a garunteed trigger. I've felt very exausted emotionally lately so I don't know really know how to handle it. He has to be on a liquid diet for three days and then has a medical procedure at the end of the week, he has some legal things he has to do this week and we are so broke it's not funny(money is always a trigger). Add my upcomming birthday and you have a recipie for a tenter tantrum. One that I would like to avoid but I know it's not my choice. I can only walk away from it.
I have been trying really hard to do stuff for myself and have succeeded. I just can't shake my anxiety though and it pretty much makes it worse for when I am around my husband. Because they read your emotions. I've been much better and he has actually been much better too but it doesn't stop me from getting Rageaphobia when I see something that resembles an outburst. A few days ago my husband had a very real problem with our neighbor. It has been sevral months since I have seen his anger and as soon as he showed behavior I felt like I was gonna pass out. This is new for me, I can usually keep my cool pretty good, but it was almost instant. I know getting myself treatment would really help but at the moment it just isn't possible because of money. Things between me and my husband are the usual, he has days that he is down but we have been getting along pretty good. I kinda feel like things are too good to be true and am waiting for reality to show it's face.
I have some fleas for sure. I don't even know what I am asking I just feel really stressed out and I don't like it.
