Update...

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Well I got a new job that starts on Monday. I still have the kids most of the time and the custody eval is still pending.  It should be done any day now.  I have much more support than I was able to realize in the fog. I have family around who are all willing to help and it turns My nephew's fiancé is a nanny.  Things seem to be coming together. It has been Almost 8 months out now this time. I am enjoying hanging out with myself and actually getting to know myself again. Sounds weird.  The kids and I spent last weekend at the beach, it is really nice to be able to take a trip without any adult drama, so much more relaxing.  You would think things would get harder being a single parent from everything you hear, but it is easier in this situation. I mean Way easier.   

I hope things don't change, but I don't know what is going to happen.  the kids seem to be doing so much better. They still have issues, my daughter has ptsd symptoms, but compared to how we were a few months ago we are all doing so much better.