why do i care why do i want her back?

[simplyasiam]

some many times down this road 1st time ive every looked in the BPD or bipolar2

in past six years ive been cheated on left so many time i cant keep tract. been told after her return (I needed to work on something about myself )

i gave my heart and soul to this and i want more?

im missing her? or just what i feel is my life?

im lost alot feel hurt alot and holding on to everything what heck?

have been depressed for days now... . think it may be starting to lift?

starting to think more clearly not sure what that is like!

strong and could set limits with her if she poped back up?... . NO

confused happy and sad for no contact with her?... . yes

searching myself for what i really want and need? trying... . dont know what im after.

left this run my life? yep

wondering if this breakup comes from BPD or is she a heartless jerk?

wondering if she is really suffers from BPD or any other mental illness when i been to her Pdoc with her and know she dose.

how can she come across as being so happy to ppl?

did she get over all this on her own?

why do post thing on f/b saying and making it look like im happy and ok with life... . changed stat to in seeing someone and other thing never talk bad about her there or anywhere for that matter

why i do depend on what little she gave?

just a few of the thing going around in my head. dont know if im at the start or the finish or just going around again!

this is hard stuff to deal with thank God i found this place!

[Suzn]

It's very normal to feel all over the place emotionally after a break up.    Feeling the sadness will last for a little while simplyasiam. You'r hurt and that won't simply disappear, it will get better though.

For right now, what are you doing for you to cope?