so sad ppl life like this

[simplyasiam]

5 years of hell with out a name for for it. one year with a name for it... . BPD.

looking back i can tell the pd was fueling the way she acts the past 6 years.

always knew something was wrong just didnt know what.

always knew she would leave and come back again just never knew it would go on forever and get this bad.

thanks to God, this site, the ppl here, my family, friends and antidepresstion meds ive been able to heel some. ive been able to detatch myself from the past and start to move on.

im not sure why but i still take some contact from her, i never seen anything like the way shes acting. shes seems like a high speed yoyo at this point.

calls or txt crying and begging for me in the moring over me in the after noon and starts it all over the next day.

ive stoped talking to her and if she contacts me again im not to stick with n/c and see where that gos frist time i went n/c she showed up on my doorstep 2nd time n/c lasted 30 days and she tracted me down again. the big party she was having has come to a end so not sure what she may try this time.

i could be wrong she may try nothing as shes the one that told me she just needs to get use to where she living and she will fine and asked me to stop txt her or she would have to change her number,lol that after telling the nite before she could live without me and the txt before saying she was sick fromissing home and only had a week before school starts and didnt know what to do.