Watching it happen again

[Depression = 72% of members]

I have an BPD mother who raised and abused me. I deal with this every day when I fight the anger, sadness and the days that are hard to face. My brother, her son, deals with it every day by being a heroin addict and a compulsive liar. He and his uBPD wife are living in a hotel for a few days before their money runs out and they end up on the street. again. He is busy f-ing his life up and, I suppose, that's fine. My issue is with the fact that he is dragging his 6 and 8 yr old children through this with him. The 6 yr old, my nephew, has reverted to grunting and is almost unintelligible since he has not been enrolled in school. They have taught him growl and actually bite or beat other children up when he gets angry. My niece, the 8 yr old, is a bright little girl but we also suspect she is no longer in school. She has also picked up the compulsive lying trait from both parents.

Soo now that you have the back story here is the reason I'm writing this: I am having to watch all this happen to my niece and nephew and all I can think is that I should save them since no one saved me.

Let me also clarify that they are in OH and I am in VA and he and I have been no contact since last Christmas when I found out about the addiction. The family, including BPDMom, have all called social services at one point or another and they have done nothing.

Again I have to ask: how the hell am I supposed to watch these kids grow up in the same kind of traumatic, in flux, under educated, dirty and abusive situation that I did?

Consequently BPDMom is unraveling since he was the "all good" child.

I'm so tired.

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I have an BPD mother who raised and abused me. I deal with this every day when I fight the anger, sadness and the days that are hard to face. My brother, her son, deals with it every day by being a heroin addict and a compulsive liar. He and his uBPD wife are living in a hotel for a few days before their money runs out and they end up on the street. again. He is busy f-ing his life up and, I suppose, that's fine. My issue is with the fact that he is dragging his 6 and 8 yr old children through this with him. The 6 yr old, my nephew, has reverted to grunting and is almost unintelligible since he has not been enrolled in school. They have taught him growl and actually bite or beat other children up when he gets angry. My niece, the 8 yr old, is a bright little girl but we also suspect she is no longer in school. She has also picked up the compulsive lying trait from both parents.

Soo now that you have the back story here is the reason I'm writing this: I am having to watch all this happen to my niece and nephew and all I can think is that I should save them since no one saved me.

Let me also clarify that they are in OH and I am in VA and he and I have been no contact since last Christmas when I found out about the addiction. The family, including BPDMom, have all called social services at one point or another and they have done nothing.

Again I have to ask: how the hell am I supposed to watch these kids grow up in the same kind of traumatic, in flux, under educated, dirty and abusive situation that I did?

Consequently BPDMom is unraveling since he was the "all good" child.

I'm so tired.