Sexual Depersonalization

[Before you can make things better, you have to stop making them worse...]

When I first met her I waited. I didn't jump her bones the first date. If you could really call it a date. I took her to breakfast after a night at a bar. I felt like I was talking to a hooker. She told me she liked to give oral and swallowed every time. Ya... .She seemed like she was selling herself to me. So I didn't offer her any money. I left and went home alone. You see... I wasn't that interested at the time and I could have done without that. Remember... .she's a meth head. So next night she showed up at my house four o'clock in the morning. I could tell she was high. She had that whole crazy jaw thing going on that tweekers do. That was the first time I had sex with her. I kept her at arms length. I did not want her for a relationship. We kept having sex and I was almost certain that she either had been a hooker or wanted to be. A month went by. She showed up at my house bleeding. Said her father beat her up. Told me she needed to move in. WOW... Stop me. The one night stand that lasted most of a decade.

So that was her style. Not much intimacy. Like a hooker. Sex was a tool. She used it like that. She told me I was number fifty. You believe that? HAHAHAHAA ! It's true. Every word. And ya... .Porno sex... Dirty filthy anything goes rawdoggin... .it was great. Too bad she was crazy

[Perfidy]

When I first met her I waited. I didn't jump her bones the first date. If you could really call it a date. I took her to breakfast after a night at a bar. I felt like I was talking to a hooker. She told me she liked to give oral and swallowed every time. Ya... .She seemed like she was selling herself to me. So I didn't offer her any money. I left and went home alone. You see... I wasn't that interested at the time and I could have done without that. Remember... .she's a meth head. So next night she showed up at my house four o'clock in the morning. I could tell she was high. She had that whole crazy jaw thing going on that tweekers do. That was the first time I had sex with her. I kept her at arms length. I did not want her for a relationship. We kept having sex and I was almost certain that she either had been a hooker or wanted to be. A month went by. She showed up at my house bleeding. Said her father beat her up. Told me she needed to move in. WOW... Stop me. The one night stand that lasted most of a decade.

So that was her style. Not much intimacy. Like a hooker. Sex was a tool. She used it like that. She told me I was number fifty. You believe that? HAHAHAHAA ! It's true. Every word. And ya... .Porno sex... Dirty filthy anything goes rawdoggin... .it was great. Too bad she was crazy

[fromheeltoheal]

When I first met her I waited. I didn't jump her bones the first date. If you could really call it a date. I took her to breakfast after a night at a bar. I felt like I was talking to a hooker. She told me she liked to give oral and swallowed every time. Ya... .She seemed like she was selling herself to me. So I didn't offer her any money. I left and went home alone. You see... I wasn't that interested at the time and I could have done without that. Remember... .she's a meth head. So next night she showed up at my house four o'clock in the morning. I could tell she was high. She had that whole crazy jaw thing going on that tweekers do. That was the first time I had sex with her. I kept her at arms length. I did not want her for a relationship. We kept having sex and I was almost certain that she either had been a hooker or wanted to be. A month went by. She showed up at my house bleeding. Said her father beat her up. Told me she needed to move in. WOW... Stop me. The one night stand that lasted most of a decade.

So that was her style. Not much intimacy. Like a hooker. Sex was a tool. She used it like that. She told me I was number fifty. You believe that? HAHAHAHAA ! It's true. Every word. And ya... .Porno sex... Dirty filthy anything goes rawdoggin... .it was great. Too bad she was crazy

Yep.  Mine told me she'd been with 60 people, men and women, and that was probably low, because she lied about literally everything else, not that I wanted to know or ever asked, she volunteered it because she thought it increased her value.  Deluded. And "I can get anything I want with a blowjob"; this from a 45 year old woman.  Chronologically only. Sure, I screwed her, horizontal aerobics with zero emotional content. I wanted so much more. Oh well, at least I tested negative.

[Perfidy]

Fromh2h... .Word! I tested neg... Whew! When I told my doctor what I had been through after it was over he highly recommended an HIV test. Word! And ya... I sure tried to make it more than the wild monkey dance. Once I asked her to have rose petals scattered on the bed and scented candles burning... .Hopeless romance

[TakingWingAtLast]

Fromh2h... .Word! I tested neg... Whew! When I told my doctor what I had been through after it was over he highly recommended an HIV test. Word! And ya... I sure tried to make it more than the wild monkey dance. Once I asked her to have rose petals scattered on the bed and scented candles burning... .Hopeless romance

Perfidy,

How long was the last time that you were with her?   There's a 6 month window for HIV testing that you may need to retest.   

D

[free-n-clear]

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[Trick1004]

I wouldn't say the sex with my ex was mind-blowing, but a couple things stand out in my mind that creeped me out a bit:

1) Her eyes would roll up into her head fairly frequently.

2) Occasionally after sex the ex would blankly stare up at the ceiling. I'd snap her out of it, "whats wrong, babe?". She'd cry a bit and tell me she didn't know but felt "homesick", would want to cuddle and "crawl inside of me."

Always enjoyed the cuddling, drew the line at crawling inside of me (I'd always picture Luke slicing open the Tauntaun and crawling in). 

Weird stuff, she denied ever being sexually abused by a family member but I am convinced otherwise.