still stuck

[dancinginthelight]

well I have not posted for a long time, mainly just lurking around the forums.

It has been over 2 years now since the ex pd devalued and discarded me like trash.

I am ashamed to say that I have still not recovered from this.  It still hurts as deeply

today as it did 2 years ago.  He has since married and seems to be really happy now.

From all the smearing campaign from the ex, saying that I am mentally ill and a psychopath,

I feel I am unable to recover from the shock.

[fromheeltoheal]

So I'm going to assume that since you posted here you want to get unstuck, yes?  What do you need to do differently?

[Tausk]

I'm sorry that you're still stuck.  I go back and forth and back and forth... .but in the long run, I've made progress.  I've had to write a lot of personal inventory.  I've gone to therapy.  I've looked my FOO issues.  I've looked at my maladaptive schemas.  I've worked on mindfulness and my PTSD triggers.  Exercise, finding meaning in my life, working at giving only to other givers.

I've done my best with the above methods and many others.  All have helped. 

But it's difficult.  I understand the pain.

But I know that recovery occurs only through action and change on my part.  I hope you find some relief from the suffering.

T