I know worry about me right?
right! and fresh after a relationship, that's not going to be 100% possible. it will take time, and you can't rush time, but you can choose not to pick at the wound.
They discard a good thing then act like they are the suffering victim. Blows my mind.
yes they do, and it blows my mind too. i still, i admit, can't really absorb the way my wife bolted, having lined up another r/s, and then pitied herself for what she did - i simply didn't exist in her calculations. she had the chance to acknowledge what she did and she literally shrugged. but that's the disorder, and part of our work is to come, somehow, to accept that state of affairs. not easy! nothing irrational is easy to accept. have you read some of the literature here, such as
The Symptoms and Diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder , or
BPD: What is it? How can I tell?, especially the posts by Skip?